Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Random Thoughts from a Grateful Soul.

So I'm just
lying here in my warm cozy bed and it just occurred to me that Chik Fila home spun chocolate milkshakes with whipped cream and a cherry on top just may be the worlds most perfect food for a gal or guy on chemo😂

I seriously love these things. They don't make me nauseous.
They feel so soothing to my mouth and throat. They supply much needed calories and they taste delicious😍

Sigh.....
Yesterday was a tough day. As my body builds up with the poison I need to slay the dragon, I find myself pondering the "what if's"
Like "What if
It doesn't work?
Will I have wasted time willfully making myself sick and weak instead of making the most of my allotted time feeling fairly well and out doing things and making good memories?

I usually don't reach these thoughts until I'm almost finished so I'm kind of disappointed in myself that I have a few rough days here and there and am already second-guessing.

So I come here to write this stuff down and get it off my chest and out of my heart.
Because this is not who I am.
I am a fighter. I want to live.
And I will get better. I will get back into remission.
I am so blessed and so grateful that people both family and strangers have been so kind to me. Because of all of their generosity I've been better able to pay for my treatments and medicine without having to give up other things like buying groceries and toilet paper. Electricity.....you know...luxuries. Hah! Seriously when you are on a fixed income you learn to pinch those pennies real hard and that is even when you don't have serious health issues. Cancer, well really, any chronic illness is so expensive. I cannot reiterate enough how much I appreciate those of you who have helped. There is just this urgency with cancer and chemo and it somehow just tries so hard to take everything out of you, even your precious joy. And ofcourse I realize that not everyone is able to donate but even when you just spread the word on your social media you never know who may see it and then they might donate. A kind deed grows and multiplies in many ways. God works in mysterious ways and I firmly believe angels do walk amongst us.
So now I'm going to talk with My Savior for a long bit and once again give all of my worries to God. Let go and let God. And to you my earthly family. May God fill each of you with love and joy and may your hearts soar with the beauty of it all. Wakeup tomorrow and do one act of kindness for someone who may never be able to repay you...but then again... That is why its called 'being kind" in the first place isn't it?

Peace and love
Dixie
Dixie Theriault Help with Cancer costs fundraiser

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Thank You all. He heard you.

Thank the good Lord for lasix. And thank you all who prayed.
I'm down to 115 today.
Feeling very grateful.
Love
Dixie

Friday, March 29, 2019

Leg Swelling.

This morning I woke up to bilateral lower leg edema. I called my doctor and went in to see the nurse practitioner.  I'm going to be taking lasix all weekend and checking my weight daily. I'm up to 119 lb. But this isn't good because it's mostly fluid that I've retained. I'm not sure what to think at this point. I'm just praying that the lasix works and I can get rid of it. Please keep me in your prayers everyone.
Have a lovely weekend too!

Love
Dixie


Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Ready for Round Two

Good evening everyone. Finally made it over here to do a blog update.
As you know I've been dealing with some side effects that really dragged me down to that lonesome place where nobody wants to be.

Laryngitis, painful mouth sores, fevers, and the inability to eat due to the pain just gave me a big old case of the blues.

Thankfully I have a stellar team of people on my side and after dealing with it alone all weekend, I was able to get all of my issues addressed yesterday.

Normally today would have began the second cycle or
 round 2 of my chemotherapy.
But my fabulous RNP Elizabeth and my oncologist Dr. G. decided that moving forward I will have every 4th week off.

This will give my bone marrow and my body a chance to rebound between cycles of chemo treatments.

I also began a course of antibiotics and prescription. lozenges to rid me of this thrush and mouth sores.

And I can honestly say that its clearing up and healing  already  after just 1 day of treatment.

And this gives me new resolve and determination.
I will get through this.
Round 2 will begin next Tuesday and I am ready! Bring it on!

Keep those prayers and healing vibes coming folks.

Peace and love
Dixie

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Keeping it Real.

Feeling a little down today. So I've come here just to vent and hopefully gain better insight.

I'm in pain. A lot. And let me say it sure does wear a body down.

The thrush still hasn't resolved. In fact, I have open sores inside my mouth which make eating very painful.
Also I have laryngitis 😶 And nausea and diarrhea. And a fever.
Gosh just listen to me whine!

Now let me focus on the positive.
I have a beautiful, caring family.
My 4 children and their spouses and my 9 grandchildren.
I sure do miss them.
I wish that I had a picture of all of my grandchildren together in a group.
Its geographically impossible but still I can envision it in my mind and it makes me smile to imagine it.

I love my brothers and sisters.
My sister Jan is so good to me. She is really like having a 2nd mother.
That is the kind of person that she is. Loving , loyal,  and kind to everyone.
I helped her get through her own bout with cancer almost 2 years ago and now she is here for me.
I am so grateful to her and everyone else for their support and prayers.

I truly could not do this alone.
And today is such a beautiful day.
Enough complaining.  This too shall pass.
And I will continue to choose Life.
Love,
Dixie

I'm almost to my goal. Please visit my link and help me get there if you can. I am so grateful to you all. Thank you.

Dixie Theriault Cancer Fund
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Wednesday, March 20, 2019

1st Round of Chemo Complete!


Good morning all! I completed my 3rd treatment and round one yesterday. I've developed a severe case of thrush which is common but painful. I'm treating it with magic mouthwash and it is beginning to clear up. I'm having the usual fatigue, nausea, diarrhea but this just means the chemo is doing its job.
Tomorrow is the 1st day of Spring. How lovely is that. I can't wait to enjoy the nice weather!
All of the support and encouragement I'm receiving  lifts my spirits and puts me in just the place my soul needs to be! Getting into remission again is everything and I couldn't do it without all of you.
Keep me in your prayers as I keep you in mine.

Love and Peace
Dixie

If you can please check out my link below. Thanks to all of the kindness of others I'm very close to hitting my goal!
The Dixie Theriault Cancer Fund

Saturday, March 16, 2019

Cancer: The Great Humbler

You awake to find yourself lying in liquid feces at 4am.
You stumble into the bathroom and start the shower and you stand shivering under the water, waiting for it to warm up.

Once you are clean and dry, you return to your room and strip the bed, mattress pad included.

As the washing machine fills, you open the window so that you will stop gagging on the air freshener you sprayed thru-out, and finally you can catch your breath.

You ask yourself,
"How could this have happened?"

You feel a familiar, painful cramping low in your gut and you hastily run to the bathroom again.

Afterwards, you log onto your Amazon account, and with a sigh, you order adult diapers.

You thank God for another sunrise.

Love,
Dixie